Friends

You are like a puzzle that walked into my life, every piece clinging to each other perfectly. You were beautiful and I had you all figured out.

Gradually, pieces that I was so sure of just started going missing. A little piece here, a piece there. I watched my idea of you fall apart, slowly but surely.

At some point, I started trying to put everything back together with tape and glue, but, of course it doesn't work that way. It takes something stronger.

One day, you were just a vague idea of the person I once thought I knew. So, I picked up all the pieces that had fallen apart over time and started putting them back together, slowly but surely.

Now, you're still a puzzle. Some pieces aren't meant to be put in their place. I'm ok with that. It still gets frustrating, though, to try and figure out your words and my actions.

I just wanted to let you know that it's ok. We're friends, now, and that's the best thing that could've happened.

Kiri

With the 'best friend' I used to have, I really feel and felt like I was always just superior.

I would listen to her sing and know I could do better. I would read her writing and know that I was better. We were in 2 plays together, and I knew that I was putting a better foot forward.

It got tiring, having to encourage her and convince her she was good when I never actually believed it.

We stopped talking, and I was relieved (not just for this reason, but, for a variety of reasons.) It took a while to cut the tie, but, now it is and I am so much happier for it.

This year, I met a girl. Her name is Kiri. Kiri (I hope she doesn't mind my saying) is my best friend.

It definitely is not tiring, being friends with her. I feel like we have a balance of talent and enthusiasm that blends well together.

She is a much better singer than I am, and I love her for it. I love to listen to her sing and be able to just sit back and say 'Yes, she is better than me. And I love to hear that superiority.'

She tells me I am a great writer, and while I love to read what she writes, I still think I am a better writer. I'm glad for the fact that she likes to read what I write, and that she actually does read all of it.

When we are on the stage, we both go all out.

I love us as a friendship. I've never been so glad for a friendship ending, because without Amanda and I quitting, I may have never gotten close with Kiri. And I love her a lot.

I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night.

Things today is:
---the last day of school
---my sister's graduation
---baffling
---a very good time

I'm still sort of surprised by the fact that school is over. It feels like I'll have to go back on Monday anyway. I'm not sure why. People keep on saying "Yes! School is over!" and I just sort of stare at them blankly. It's strange.

School got out at ten o'clock exactly. I spent all of my time at school wandering around or talking to friends in "classes." It was mostly just boring, but, I'm glad I went anyway. I got to see everyone.

After school, I went out with friends to swim. Pools aren't really open so we went down to the ol' swimming hole. It was me, five other girls, and a guy. On the way away from school, I drove in the car with Kiri and Emily. While we were driving, we listened to "I Gotta Feeling" by The Black Eyed Peas. Something about driving with that song playing and the wind whipping my hair in my face made me feel liberated.

So, the school year is over. I'll miss some people who I won't get to see every day, but, I'm going to talk to all the people who I want to.

I hope this summer is as amazing as I expect.

Spectacle

I'm going to see Elvis Costello live in concert tonight. I'm getting really excited. This will be my third time seeing him, counting when he opened for The Police and I went.

Seeing him is always a thrill, live or not. He's a real spectacle. (There's a reference for fans of his talk show on Sundance.)

I'm not in school right now, and I won't be tomorrow either. I'm really going to miss my friends after school is over. I only get one more full day with them.

Hopefully they miss me, too.

Movie Tiem

This weekend, I saw two hilarious movies.

One with my family, and one with Kiri (Like Woah.)

Like woah, indeed, Kiri's name. LIKE WOAH, INDEED.

The Hangover and Land of The Lost.

Both fil-ums were heartfelt, playful romps.

Ok, maybe not.

But, they were both hilarious.

Bowling

I went bowling with my bestest friend today!

Well, technically it was me, my bestest friend, two other girls, and this guy I sort of know.

It was a fantastic nights. I bought me and my bestest friend and one of the other two girls rings that are all the same kind of ring. We called them our friendship rings. I am wearing mine right now.

I technically won bowling, but, we all sort of sucked. It was hilarious. None of us scored over 90.

Hanging out with them all was perfect. I'm so glad I went.

Marmee

I took a walk yesterday. I stayed around where I live, walking along the empty road with only my phone. Living where I do, this tends to be both peaceful at times and scary. The scenery is beautiful, but, the people are definitely not.

I was texting a friend of mine with my phone and we talked a lot about guys. I'm just getting to know her now, and she's turning out to be a pretty great person. She's very pretty and a very good singer. She's hilarious and has a great personality. It sucks that next year she'll be graduating. Sucks for me, anyway. I know she's going to go on to do awesome things.

It started raining as soon as I got to my driveway. I sprinted down it and up my stairs so that I was panting when I got inside. It felt good to get fresh air in my lungs and even though it was o nly sprinkling, the rain was envigorating as well.

My advice to readers: take more walks and make more friends. You might find yourself surprised by both.